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OK well, we are doing the 8th grader writing assesment, and i got almost one paragraph done.
The topic is "Personal Neritive" and mine is about my grandmother who has recently passed on. 1 year and months ago tommarow.
Basically, we are writing on our memories with someone we most admire and look up to. I was going to do my ex-boyfriend ryan... but then i was thinking about how much he doesnt admire me, and how mean he is to me. So i went with my grandmother.

Over the pass couple of months I have been doing a lot better, not making suicidal thoughts, or thinking about running away.. again. It's because of my boyfriend tyler, he has really taught me a lot about life, and how everything isn't always handed to you, you have to earn it, he also had taught me how to fight for myself, physically and mentally. Once I was with tyler, I learned how to stand on my own, because before i met him, i was in this hole and it seemed like everyone that was starting to hate me or ignore me, was just kicking me back into that hole(thats where i wanted to commit suicide). Now that i have tyler, I'm safely out of that hole. I'm not trying to rely on him to save me everytime i get hurt... at first i try to get back up, and if i fall back over then, that is when i need help. I'm not dating him cause i need a guy to complete me and my life. I'm dating him cause i love him, but he's there for me, just as much as my friends are. I'm sometimes in my own little world, but it gets kinda lonely and thats when i step out of my world for a little while, and enjoy others.
I just want to say sorry to all the people i scared in the passed, i really didn't mean it for attention, i was going through a lot at that point and well, i guess people go through that kind of thing... and if anyone thought that i wanted to commit suicide for attention, then your wrong.

Four two years my life has been nothing but stress, worries, crying, and much much more. I haven't been the same after everything thats happen to me in the past couple of years... I do want to thank all the people that have been there for me through out these two whole years;

*Norah Helley
*Tyler Belonga
*Cassie Marcial
*Audrey DiGirolamo
*Angie Karamanyan
*My Mother
*Mrs. Hunter
*Mr.Merrel
*Mrs. Anne
The Whole girl (varsity and part of JV) soccer team
and if i missed you im sorry! :( But thank you all so much, i dont think i would of ever done it without you!